Day 13: Thoughts on…

Girls

First off, I am one. Other girls though, there are some good, some bad. Some are filled with drama, fake, annoying, attention whores, etc. etc. Others are inspiring, beautiful on the inside and out, smart and ambitious.

I don’t really know my thoughts on them. Like I said yesterday, my best friend is a girl, but my other super close friends are guys, with a couple of exceptions like Ally and a couple others.

Personal 7 Day Challenge: Day 3 and 4

What are your three lucky charms?

I don’t know if I actually have any… Maybe all the bracelets on my left wrists. I feel incomplete without them. I don’t really think they bring luck though.

Who are your 4 closest friends and what do you like about them? (not in any order)

• Sunny-This dude keeps it real. He’s so passionate about everything and I love how ambitious he is. We’ve become extremely close over the past few years. We always have each other to talk to when something big is happening in our lives and advice and support is constantly being given back and forth. He’s definitely one of my best friends.
• Janessa-She’s been my best friend since about freshman year in high school. Friends since 5th. We don’ talk much now that we’re in college, which is really strange, but I know she always has my back. I feel like we’ve grown apart a little and for some reason our communication sucks. For some reason, she doesn’t really tell me what’s going on in her life. I love her to death though and she’ll always be my closest gal. 
• Andrew-He’s like my older brother. When I was in high school he used to be like  my very own college counselor and always had tips for me. He seriously cracks me up. He holds the title of my personal shopping buddy and we both know it’s all about swag. lol. 
• Brian Hirst-I love my Bri-bri. He always has the right things to say to make me feel better when I doubt myself. He sees the brighter side of things and taught me how to think in the same way. He has an “I don’t care” essence , but he really has a huge heart when it comes to being a good friend.

(Source: riotross)

30 Day Challenge: Day 17

If you were another person would you be friends with you?

Well sure. I’m fucking epic.

lol. JK. I’m definitely not conceited like that. But, yes, I probably would be friends with myself (which sounds kinda strange, but whatevs).

(Source: riotross)

30 Day Challenge: Day 25

Are you the type of person with lots of friends or just a few close ones?

I have a lot of friends all over the place. The closest to my heart are my best friends from the Bay Area. Then I have my flute family. My Grammy Camp family. My CASA friends. And then other random friends I’ve gained along the way.

I’m not sure how to consider myself.

(Source: riotross)

Tonight

Getting together with part of the Wolf Pack. Good vibes.

(Source: riotross)

At this point I realize I don’t need a lot of people anymore.

d3mitnguyen:

I don’t need anyone who doesn’t need me.  A few friends that are willing to stick with me through everything nd stay loyal is all I need. I don’t need anyone whos only gonna stick around for a little while then leave .. I’m not down for that shit anymore.  Who I have now is all I need. I mean youre welcome in my life, but if you come in then stay . If you want to leave then don’t come back. 

Seriously. No matter how excited they seem to be when they  see me after not seeing each other for awhile, I’m obviously not that important to them. The gap between seeing each other shouldn’t be so large. I honestly think it’s not that hard to get together. I’m tired of being the one who always does the planning.

The biggest example for me is my friend Angel. We’ve had a long distance friendship since the 2nd/3rd grade and we’ve managed to stay in touch like the bad asses we are. People who live 5 minutes from me can barely keep in touch.

I ask myself: why even bother anymore?

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Great night

I’m ready to head back to Los Angeles to further my higher education and to dive back into the scene.

Tonight reminded me of what I’ll miss the most about being in the Bay Area. What? My friends. My closest and dearest friends. Spent some quality time with about 15 of them. Some came, some went, some stayed for the entire time. No matter what, they made an effort to stop by. I had friends from Fairfield area, local area, and 925 area. I love each and every one of them in a different way for different reasons.

Even my 3rd grade best friend showed up and surprised me. My mom ran into his mom and he actually came. That was a HUGE shocker. I hadn’t seen him for years. Now we’re back in touch.

My booboo Jette and his girlfriend stopped by for a bit as well. I don’t see him very often unfortunately, so it meant a lot to me.

The night was full of traditions. Great food, Apples to Apples, and 500 Days of Summer. Add in a little Mario Kart and the evening was nearly perfect.

I’m going to miss these fools. Can’t wait to see some of them and a few others on Tuesday

(Source: riotross)

That one idea I was talking about before

No one except for a select few knew what I was talking about.

I’m thinking about working on a new project. A clothing line project. I’m going to gather some of my most dedicated and trustworthy friends to work on it with me.

Do you think I’m crazy? Who would support me? Who would want to work with me?

I’ve got big ideas, but no set direction.

“You have to start somewhere.”
“Do better than that. Make it happen.”

(Source: riotross)

30 Day Challenge: Day 15

If you had only 24 hours to live, what would you do?

Go home and spend time with my family and friends. Hopefully the Air Force would allow Sam to come down to see me too. All I would want to say is “I love you.”

(Source: riotross)

I leave LA in 3 days

Part of me isn’t looking forward to it because there is so much radness in this city (and in Hollywood). I’ll miss a lot of the magic that goes on around here, especially in the music scene.

The other half is stoked though because I can concentrate on getting other parts of my life accomplished. I can get back to playing my piano, bass guitar, guitar, and ukelele, learn how to skateboard, sketch more ideas, learn how to drive, improve myself in different ways and make some awesome memories with some of my closest friends.

I won’t allow myself to slack. I’m tired of not making things happen. This will be the summer of new beginnings.

(Source: riotross)

30 Day Challenge: Day 27

Do you prefer to travel alone, with your family or friends?

Definitely with family or friends. I hate going anywhere alone.

(Source: riotross)

Struggs

My mom called to check on how I was doing. She wants me to talk about things. Problem: How am I supposed to talk to other people about my problems when I can’t even tell myself? When I’m not even sure what the big deal is? I can’t gather my thoughts. I’d rather learn how to not give a flying fuck and live an optimistic happy life.

(Source: riotross)

Unexpected

When I walked into Safeway today, I got a random text. I didn’t know who it was, but it said, “I’ve been seeing you way too often :) hello.” I was like uuuhhh….do I have a stalker or something? lol. Sounded pretty creepy, then I realized who it was (and confirmed it with my mom’s phone.)

It was one of my old best friends. He works at Safeway and since I’ve been doing recycling a lot, he must have seen me. We haven’t spoken in over a year. Maybe even more than that. Why? Once he started dating this one girl, she was really insecure and told him not to talk to me or my best friend. He used to have a huge crush on me since the 7th grade. All I wanted was to be friends with him though.

Well, one time they broke up and he came crawling back to hang with us. We gave him a second chance, then he got back together with the girl and stopped talking to us again.

They broke up again. Honestly, hopefully for good because I don’t see how she affected him positively. So he wants to be friends again. I really want to be like “Screw you, you don’t deserve a friend like me,” but then I really do miss our friendship, at least how it used to be.

I don’t know.

(Source: riotross)

Some of my friends never cease to amaze me. We all need to congregate in SoCal and create our own creativity army. I’m so lucky to know these wonderful people. They inspire me to keep striving for my dream.

I have a lot of work cut out for me.